All I want for Christmas is YOU

So today I went Christmas shopping and found the perfect gift for myself. Yes I know that it sounds a bit pathetic but the fact is that ever since I found out that SPOILER Santa doesn't exist, my parents have been giving me money so I can buy my presents. So today I was decided to shop like a maniac but as it always goes when you finally have some money I couldn't find anything worth spending! I did find a couple of things though.. like the CH Carolina Herrera perfum! It smells amazing! I'm definitely buying it. Also I found some really cool boots. They're brown and kind of rough almost like boyfriend boots you know? Brown leather but all worn out. It was love at first sight! But they're really expensive so I'm not sure.

But no matter what you get for Christmas it's all about spending time with you family. I love this time a year! Every year we swap and spend the night with my mother's family and the next one with my father's. This year it's my father's turn! I can't wait. 

After that we are going camping! It's a family tradition. I've been going camping every year before Christmas my entire life! Even before I was born my mother went while being pregnant so it's kind of a big deal.

So what are you getting for Christmas?

Tune of the day

It's been a couple of days since my last "Tune of the day" post. Anyway this song is called "When U love somebody" by Fruit Bats. It's a bit old but one of my favorites. I love the part when they sing: "When U love somebody and bite your tongue all you get is a mouthful of blood". I completely agree with this. And talking with experience it's way better to come clean about your feelings with the person you like. It's NOT easy but life is way too short to be living with doubts!

When you're DREAMING with a broken heart

Dreams. They can be really bizarre sometimes! I'm constantly dreaming, it's very rare not to have one every night. I love having them and then waking up and trying to figure out what they mean. They say dreams are an exact reflection of what we really want, it's our subconscious telling us what we really crave and desire. 

So last night was no exception. The minute I closed my eyes my mind started to drift around and dream. In my dream I was in college, but it wasn't my normal college. I guess I wasn't in Mexico because everyone spoke in english with a british accent. So as I was saying I was in some sort of college in a class room all by myself. In front of me there was a professor. He looked quite young. I don't remember what class he gave or what the heck I was doing there alone. I just remember that he told me something like: "You're a very lucky girl Anais, now go on and enjoy".

As I was leaving the room I remember I turned back and told him: "I don't know what I'm supposed to do" and he just smiled and continued working saying "Oh no, believe me you know!". I opened the door and as I was closing it I heard a voice asking me how did all go. I looked up and I didn't recognize who it was. But apparently the guy knew me cuz he quickly hugged me and gave me a kiss. 

Then everything is a bit of a blur. I remember we went to a party in one of the dorms. I think my sister was there too with her boyfriend. Though I don't remember exactly what happen, except the first part of the dream, I remember perfectly some feelings I experienced. Throughout the dream I felt very safe and incredibly happy. I felt like I was exactly where I needed to be. 

I woke up with a smile on my face. I cherish this kind of dreams because I know deep down that they mean something. I try to learn from them because I know that it's my own mind telling me what I need. 

I have lots and lots of dreams to tell you guys about!

Just a bit of loneliness...

 

Ok here's my WARNING! I'm about to get really cheesy! But come on! Who doesn't want someone to love, someone to have by your side? Yes you can call me lonely but after all this time of having some bad experiences (though I had some nice ones) it's time that I get what I've always wanted! 

Yeah sure right now I'm having fun, meeting new people and having a great time. But you know.. it gets rather lonely from my side of the bench. Anyway I don't want to nag a lot so bye!

11:11

Make a WISH!

Tune of the Day

"Christmas Lights" Coldplay

Eat, Read, Love

Since I'm on vacations I get to do one of my favorite things in the world: READ!

Right now I'm reading this amazing book called "Eat, Pray, Love". At first I wasn't very interested. When the movie came out I actually didn't want to watch it because I was in a place in my life where I felt that everything around me was depressing. So I didn't watch it. 

But one day a friend of mine lend me the book and I'e been hooked since then! I don't have a lot of time to read while I'm in college so it's been a couple of months and I still haven't finished it. But this is one of those books that you never want to finish. 

I highly recomended it. Liz Gilbert, the author, wraps you with this highly spirutual and funny story. So if you want something GOOD to read this holiday this is definetely a good option!

Tune of the day

I've decided that I'm gonna post a song everyday, or at least I'll try. Music is such an important part of my life that including it here sounds like the reasonable thing to do. So tonight I'm posting probably one of my favorite songs ever. It's from "The Format" and it's called "On your porch". Though this song is really old it talks about everything in life. From love,to the feeling of failure in life and the comfort family gives you. Hope you like it!

Prepare for the BEST and the FASTEST ride

Just wanted to share a picture from a party I went a couple of days ago. I wasn't even invited but still went! It was fun to catch up with some friends I hadn't seen in a while and also a bit awkward to run into.. well you know. But still it was fun. 

It's weird huh? Seeing how everyone moves on with their lives.. Seems like yesterday when I was in middle school always daydreaming about how it would be like to be a "grown up" in college. Well now that you could say that I am one I don't regret a single thing. I would like for time to stay still for a bit though cuz everything seems to be happening way to fast!

Still I'm determined to have the time of my life, to have fun, get drunk and do crazy things because we only have one life and we must make the most out of it! 

I'm going to stop talking now before I get all corny and cliché. Guess I just wanted to say that right now I'm in a good place in my life. I'm HAPPY and for me thats all that matters.

Don't wanna take a chance on your paper romance anyway

Just found this song. I love Groove Armada. I have the great opportunity to watch them live in concert on my birthday! I actually turned 17 as they were playing. That was one of my best birthdays ever. That same day I saw Connor Oberst (and almost fainted!), Metric, The Faint, Fatboy Slim, The Mars Volta and many more. By far it has been one of the best music festivals I've attended. Though nothing can beat the Coldplay concert I went last year!

Are you there?

I'm so sorry! It's been a long time since my last post. I've been very busy and I'd forgotten all about this place. There's a LOT to tell you guys! Ok first of all I passed my accounting class!! So that's a huge relief! So now I can relax and enjoy my winter break. I'm home now and loving every minute of it! I don't have to worry about a single thing now, I have my parents here and my sister. Gosh! I didn't think I could miss my hometown this much. Life here is so different, everything moves slower, no one has problems and nobody is stressed. Though I find it quite strange that I miss my new life. My new friends, college, everything. It's kind of a bittersweet experience.

Anyway I'm enjoying the free time. I have some DIY proyects that I can wait to start. I've been visiting some friends that I hadn't seen in a while and I've been keeping up with my family.

I promise to keep posting and tell you all my adventures. I don't know if someone ever reads my blog but I find it relaxing and therapeutic. So I'll keep doing it! I think of it as my own personal psychiatrist and a friend that always listens.

'Till next time!

That's a killer look Michael Kors!

The double KNOT

I just discovered this hairstyle and I'm loving it! It was featured in Michael Kors's Spring 2011 fashion show at New York Fashion Week and it's the perfect laid back look! It's pretty easy to make and completely suits my style! Plus I get to use it while vacationing on the beach this holiday!

It's been a while...

So it's been a while since my last post. I've been kind of busy with college and stuff but now I'm totally free! The problem now is.. what to do with all the free time? So I'm looking for some DIY projects I can do while I'm home. If you have some suggestions please tell me!

Next week I'm going home! It's such an amazing feeling knowing that I get to see my parents after almost 6 months! Can't wait to get home and enjoy of some home cooked meals!

Is there anything I can do for you dear? Is there anyone I could call? No, and thank you, please madam, I ain't lost, just wandering

Came home today after what can be described as a SHITTY day. Gosh! I'm sick of having terrible days! It's like I'm not good at ANYTHING! I'm sick of it! I'm so tired of trying, of making a huge effort to be good at something and fail every single time!

This is a place where I don't feel alone

This is a place that I call my home...
My best friend took this picture... it may not be too much for some people but to me it means a lot! It reminds me of everything I miss, my home, my friends, my family, the weather.. my hometown! It's really funny how I really wanted to get out of that place, I felt like I didn't fit, like I didn't belong. But now looking back I've realized that those were the BEST years of my life. Yeah sure here I have fun and I'm always meeting new people, but nothing compares to your REAL HOME.

Cause I am.., I'm the fury in your head

This is EXACTLY how I feel. It's just so fking frustrating that even though I'm good in a million other stuff there's always some other fking thing were I always have to fail.. I just.. I just had enough for now.

I'm the ghost in the back of your head

I'm thankful for..

Happy Thanksgiving! Even though I don't celebrate it cuz I'm not American I've always wanted to! I've eaten turkey but I've always wanted to try the pumpking pie and the cranberrie sauce! So lets hope the day comes when someone invites me to a Thanksgiving dinner! Till then enjoy eating like crazy my friends!

Shoot me now mister cuz I don't have anything worth living for..

So on Monday my entire college life will get to a crossroad... I have my accounting exam and well, let's put it this way: IM SCREWED! But I need to give myself some credit cuz I'm working my ass off studyng every single day so I can pass the semester. Anyway I'll make sure to tell you if all the effort was worth. Let's hope it is!

Too late.. it's too damn late.

Life's a party...

so have fun and get drunk!

Lo que daría por no creer en cuentos de hadas...

-¡No hay peor ciego que el que no quiere ver!-
No querias, pero alcanzas a escuchar la frase gritada
mientras cierras la puerta, y menos que ojos, en ese
momento desearías no tener oídos. Ahora no podrás
sacarte de la cabeza la amonestación (advertencia,
acaso) omnisapiente y omnividente, pero ¡¿qué es lo
que hay que ver?!

Para ahuyentar la sensación de que todos observan lo
que tú no, cierras los ojos y miras para adentro, como
si de ese modo tu sensibilidad se afinara y pudieras
percibir la mancha de tizne, no en tu frente, sino ahí,
en tu corazón, a la vista de todos.

Loneliness what would I do without you dear old friend?

And she has chosen to believe
that she isn't alone
that someone loves her
even if she doesn't see it
she knows it
even if that person is away
she has chosen to believe
because the thought of it makes her
feel safe stronger, better, alive.
she has chosen to believe
that there is light
that the night has an ending
that the darkness will dissapear
And that her sorrow will end
She has chosen to believe
that eventually everything will be okay
that she will find her other half
and that she will finally believe.

Hello, I'm in love with you sir

So I'm still trying to figure out this thing but I just wanted to tell you all welcome! I hope I don't overwhelm you with all my winning about my life and my problems.. but lets hope thats not all I post! and if it is please do tell me about it!

I just wanted a place where I could put everything that's on my mind.. sometimes a girl can get really lonely and my mind usually gets filled with tons of thoughts so what's better than writting about it?

So bare with me please! Also I tend to write in english even though it's not my first language. But sometimes there are stuff that can't be explained in english so I'll put them in spanish.

Will be posting very soon..